Pregnancy Sucks

Although my pregnancy has been a healthy one, it still sucks. I had a little bit of nausea in the first trimester, but never threw up. I had the arms and legs falling asleep at night during the first few weeks of the second trimester, but that didn't last long. Now I have severe insomnia, which medication helped with for the first week or so, but not so much anymore; my hips and lower back have been killing me, which I've always had problems with so I figured it'd get worse, but I didn't realize it would get so bad so early on; and maybe this is too much information, but my IBS has also been acting up, which I also expected since most pregnant women suffer with constipation. Not to mention the headaches which I can take nothing for, well that's not entirely true, I can take Tylenol, but that does absolutely nothing for me. So just add all that up, and what you get is that pregnancy sucks.

Yeah, yeah, I know pregnancy is supposed to be this wonderful, miraculous experience that I am supposed to be honored to be a part of, and it is, and I am, but it also just plain sucks. I've always wanted multiple children, but after this experience I don't know if I could put myself through this again. So maybe we'll adopt next time, who knows, I guess we'll see how we feel after we have this baby. 

Anyways, we had our anatomic ultrasound today, which is the one where you find out the gender of the baby (as long as baby cooperates) and where they look at all the internal organs and measure everything to make sure everything is healthy and baby is where he/she should be. Although baby was moving around a lot, he/she did not switch positions, so we have to go back for another ultrasound to get a better look at the heart. I guess baby had to be spine down for them to get the proper readings and baby was spine up the entire time. Also I guess the placenta is very close to the cervix, which is not really a big deal, it just means that if it doesn't move by the time baby is ready to be born they would have to do a C-Section, but I guess it usually moves as the pregnancy progresses. So anyways, they also want to recheck that. Other than that everything went well and baby is measuring right where he/she should be, but we'll find out more when I see my doctor next, which is in about 3 weeks. Also, the ultrasound technician was able to determine gender, but like I said before we are not finding out until the reveal party, which is September 1st. So what we did was Mike wrote boy and girl on a piece of paper and folded it up and put it in an envelope, so we just had her circle one or the other, fold it back up, and put it back in the envelope. So we will be giving that envelope to the lady that is baking our gender reveal cake and we'll see what color the cake ends up being on September 1st. It's a good thing I am going to see her tonight, because I don't know if I could resist the temptation to open that envelope if I had to hold onto it for awhile. 

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Pregnancy, at least for me, has been exhausting. You're making a human being, and that's tiring. So why when you're already exhausted, does your body make it impossible to sleep? It's just not fair. Maybe it's because I've had insomnia since I was 13; but I had stopped my medication all together when Mike and I started trying to have a baby and I did fine up until a week and a half ago. Even before that I had gone from taking 150 mg of Trazodone to 25 mg and was sleeping fine. So I think it probably has something to do with both the fact that I've had insomnia for the better half of my life and the fact that I'm pregnant.

So after a week of only getting 2-3 hours of sleep a night was followed by three nights of getting absolutely no sleep at all I called my OBGYN. I talked to a nurse and she talked to a doctor who prescribed me 5 mg of Ambien. So I took it that night hopeful I would finally get some sleep. No such luck. I called my doctors office back and scheduled an appointment with a different doctor for the next day (that was the soonest they could get me in). The next day I had Mike drive me to the doctors (I didn't think I should be driving with how exhausted I was) and we met the nicest doctor yet. She was kind and understanding and wrote me a note for work since I had missed three days so far. Anyways she thought that I should go back to Trazodone since it has worked in the past for me. She also thought that it was safer than Ambien to take while pregnant, although it is also a class C drug, which pretty much means they don't know a ton about how it affects the baby since you cannot do drug studies on women who are pregnant; but from women who have taken it while pregnant there have been no adverse effects on baby. Also every doctor is different and has different views on different drugs. Any how she advised me to start off with 25 mg and wait an hour and if I'm still not asleep to take another 25 mg, and so on and so forth. Since I was there in the office she took a listen to baby's heart beat. I wasn't really worried about baby, but it's always nice to hear the beating of your unborn baby's heart. Still holding at 156 beats per minute :)

Anyways, last night I got to 75 mg and finally fell asleep for a couple hours, but, like all pregnant women, I had to get up to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night and couldn't get back to sleep. Well at least that's better than no sleep at all. So tonight I shall start off taking 75 mg and hopefully that will keep me asleep even through getting up to go to the bathroom, but if not I guess I'll take another 25 mg.